I say important stuff, no one listen. They say rubbish, everyone treat as gold. Seriously, no matter which clique I go with, the same thing happens. Maybe I should just unclique myself.

First time blogging from my S4! Haha so excited. Can't sleep because my mind is too cluttered again and I decided to pen my thoughts down.

I remembered when I was young, I kept telling others that I will study what interest me and not what will earn me money. I will find a career that I have passion in rather than just finding a job that will give me good pay. In the end, I took triple science in sec school and H2 biology in jc due to pressure from my elders. Then I went into chemical engineering because of future job prospects. To be honest, I am rather disgusted by myself for making such a choice. I don't enjoy it and my results are being negatively affected. I failed to secure a spot for SEP and because of engin club, I can't go for summer school! And due to reservist, winter school is also out of the point. My jc classmates actually felt that I would be more suitable to take accountancy instead. But I can only suck it up.

Looking at all the photos posted by people on exchange, I get super jealous. Not only jealous, I am also really mad at myself for not working hard enough to get better grades. I guess I only have myself to blame.

So I crashed Engin Camp and ChESS Camp. As a Year 3 laojiao, I can feel the lethargy after doing one long cheer or even trying to participate in the games! I think most of the time I am just finding loopholes to the games so that my OG can win. And to be honest, I suspect for both camps, my OG has the most points, but both camp comms decided to abolish the best OG. Meh.